What am I doing here?

My mother passed away in 2005. It was the most devastating thing to happen to me. I have had other traumatic things happen to me but this would not compare. It was only after losing my mother, after the numbness wore off, and everyday after that, the realisation took hold - I had lost the most important person in my life. The support, the comfort I would have in the world, the belonging, the giving and the love would not be equaled.

So here I am. I want to find a place to talk to my mother. To winge about the world like I can't with anyone else. Our relationship wasn't perfect by any means, but her love was unfaulting. She was a real woman - who had to juggle her life; her needs, her families' wants and the worlds demands. I want this space to be a place where I can talk to real woman as a real woman - without judgement, no recriminations - like a mother does.